God is the ultimate Rabbi and, in His classroom, I was shown Isaiah 11:1-3, “Then a shoot will spring from the stem of Jesse, and a branch from his roots will bear fruit. The Spirit of the LORD will rest on Him, The spirit of wisdom and understanding, the spirit of counsel and strength, the spirit of knowledge and the fear of the LORD, and He will delight in the fear of the LORD, and He will not judge by what His eyes see, nor make a decision by what His ears hear…” This passage is referring to Jesus Christ, and therefore, it means that Jesus not only had the fear of the LORD, but that he delighted in it!
I desire to proclaim God’s greatness and that requires transparency about my weaknesses. One weakness I had been understanding is my familiar ease with God’s love, but uneasiness when I saw too much of His “hugeness”. For some reason my heart could not see these two together: the all-powerful, sovereign God and the ultimate, loving God. My life experiences indicated that authority and love could not co-exist. I will also share with you that I know I did not sense the fullness of His power and authority in my life, and so, I started praying in earnest to ask why that was my reality. Now I see that these issues were related, but I could not see it a the time. The Lord would continue to bring me revelations in His classroom.
God began to bring scripture passages to mind:
Proverbs 3:7, “Do not be wise in your own eyes; fear the LORD and turn away from evil.”
Proverbs 1:7, “The fear of the LORD is the beginning of knowledge; fools despise wisdom and instruction.”
Proverbs 9:10, “The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom, and the knowledge of the Holy One is understanding.”
2 Corinthians 7:1, “Therefore, having these promises, beloved, let us cleanse ourselves from all defilement of flesh and spirit, perfecting holiness in the fear of God.”
So I was catching on that the fear of the LORD is the beginning of knowledge and wisdom, and is linked to holiness. Even though my mind was connecting with the truth, my heart still could not embrace this idea.
Then, in the midst of a deep season of surrender and humility, God began to remove the veil of my heart with words like, “believe differently.” I became even more aware of my incapacity to imagine anything outside of the box of my beliefs about the nature of God. I cried out to the Lord, and true to Psalm 107, He delivered me from my distress and brought me beyond the four walls of my mind and heart. Pivotal to this was an experience on a beach that was being fiercely ravished by typhoon level waves. A few days after the worst of the storm, I made my way over the exposed rocks, treacherous inlets and extended walls of sand where huge segments of the beach had been ripped removed. Suddenly, I found myself in an extremely vulnerable position as a huge wave appeared. I immediately realized that I was trapped, as it was impossible to climb the sand wall behind me or to run its extended length to reach safer ground. In that moment I said to the Lord, “I am at Your mercy. Whether I live or die is in Your hands.” His reply came back unmistakably, “You are always at My mercy – you just don’t realize it.”
That moment changed my life. The vague concepts all of a sudden made sense in my limited mind. God had given me the tangible illustration I needed to understand concepts beyond my understanding.
Stay tuned for more…….